Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
I finally hooked up my wireless internet, so tonight I'm blogging in the 88 degree weather on my little balcony.
I spent all weekend outside and got a little sun on my shoulders to show for it...
I got to see Master Amanda on Saturday. We didn't chai...we Proofed instead. It was refreshing...
Z and I (as usual) spent the whole weekend together and it was fantastic. I feel so blessed to have him.
I'm taking the plunge and switching over my residency to the District of Columbia... Unfortunately, it's not as easy as I'd like it to be. I'm able to do a lot of things online, which is great, but if I had my way...I'd do (almost) everything online!
So many things to remember...mail.voting.credit cards.car insurance.car title.driver's license.and more...
Also, I just realized that since it's dark outside, I can't see the keyboard, but haven't needed to glance down once. Growing up in the computer (AIM) age has made me a much more proficient typer...that or I have memorized where the 'backspace' button is. Ha...
No real reason for a blog, just wanted to test my wireless...and sit outside. Mmm warm weather is among us :)
I spent all weekend outside and got a little sun on my shoulders to show for it...
I got to see Master Amanda on Saturday. We didn't chai...we Proofed instead. It was refreshing...
Z and I (as usual) spent the whole weekend together and it was fantastic. I feel so blessed to have him.
I'm taking the plunge and switching over my residency to the District of Columbia... Unfortunately, it's not as easy as I'd like it to be. I'm able to do a lot of things online, which is great, but if I had my way...I'd do (almost) everything online!
So many things to remember...mail.voting.credit cards.car insurance.car title.driver's license.and more...
Also, I just realized that since it's dark outside, I can't see the keyboard, but haven't needed to glance down once. Growing up in the computer (AIM) age has made me a much more proficient typer...that or I have memorized where the 'backspace' button is. Ha...
No real reason for a blog, just wanted to test my wireless...and sit outside. Mmm warm weather is among us :)
Friday, April 24, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
whoooo are you? oo oo, oo oo (let's get introspective)
there's always the way you'd like to think you see yourself, the way you want people to see you, and the way you really see yourself.
these don't ever line up for anyone. you can pretend that they do, but you'd just be...pretending.
i'd like to think that I'm a caring, generous, selfless, cultured, loving, thoughtful, open-minded, smart person. maybe that's who I want to be...
i think some people see these things in me too. maybe that's what I want them to see...
some days, I do things that surprise me:
i pass judgment, i think i would have done something differently (better) than other people, i roll my eyes, i BS the crap out of people, i get annoyed or impatient, i forget to be thankful, i take things and people for granted, i talk about people behind their backs, etc. some people might call this "human," but if we justify these behaviors and don't strive to be better, what happens?
i know who we are changes as we age, as we learn, as we experience, as we meet new people, and as we realize the things we don't like about ourselves.
the confusion of being you...is that you're never really you. no one is original. this is what i conclude. we're all conglomerations of everything and everyone. maybe the various combinations of things that make us "us" are the ways we are unique. i don't know. this all makes sense in my head, but i always have problems articulating...
now for the motivation of this entry:
i did earth day stuff this weekend. watershed cleanup and free concert on the mall (los lobos, moe., and the flaming lips). i did these things because i wanted to be active in my community. here's where my dilemma lies...i went to the free concert because it's something i thought was something i would do...but really, i was tired. i could have just as easily stayed home. another dilemma, i didn't like moe. and didn't even really like the flaming lips. i stayed because...how could i tell my friends (who love the lips) that i didn't stay...even though it was free and in my own backyard. sometimes i do things because i think people think i should...so i do. but the other dilemma...is that sometimes i don't even know what i really like to do, or what kind of music i like to listen to etc. you know?
the last note i will leave on is this: today i thought to myself "geez, why does this person try so hard to be cool and have all these friends...??" and then i thought, "denise, why don't you try? why are you content on spending most of your time with your family and your boyfriend?" and then i realized "WOA, I ACTUALLY LIKE DOING THAT!!!" thank you, Jesus.
now seriously, i love my friends (alot!), and they know that. i like that i don't really have to try super hard to have these friends...we all kind of work together and it's great. but i think the reason i love them...is that we don't have to go out and do something every weekend...even when we're together, we don't have to do anything! phew...
i'm not old, i'm not cheap, i'm not lazy...i just don't feel the need to be doing something all the time...that's all
haha i don't think any of the makes sense...however, this exercise was well worth it, because somehow i feel as though i've vented and now i feel better. comical.
these don't ever line up for anyone. you can pretend that they do, but you'd just be...pretending.
i'd like to think that I'm a caring, generous, selfless, cultured, loving, thoughtful, open-minded, smart person. maybe that's who I want to be...
i think some people see these things in me too. maybe that's what I want them to see...
some days, I do things that surprise me:
i pass judgment, i think i would have done something differently (better) than other people, i roll my eyes, i BS the crap out of people, i get annoyed or impatient, i forget to be thankful, i take things and people for granted, i talk about people behind their backs, etc. some people might call this "human," but if we justify these behaviors and don't strive to be better, what happens?
i know who we are changes as we age, as we learn, as we experience, as we meet new people, and as we realize the things we don't like about ourselves.
the confusion of being you...is that you're never really you. no one is original. this is what i conclude. we're all conglomerations of everything and everyone. maybe the various combinations of things that make us "us" are the ways we are unique. i don't know. this all makes sense in my head, but i always have problems articulating...
now for the motivation of this entry:
i did earth day stuff this weekend. watershed cleanup and free concert on the mall (los lobos, moe., and the flaming lips). i did these things because i wanted to be active in my community. here's where my dilemma lies...i went to the free concert because it's something i thought was something i would do...but really, i was tired. i could have just as easily stayed home. another dilemma, i didn't like moe. and didn't even really like the flaming lips. i stayed because...how could i tell my friends (who love the lips) that i didn't stay...even though it was free and in my own backyard. sometimes i do things because i think people think i should...so i do. but the other dilemma...is that sometimes i don't even know what i really like to do, or what kind of music i like to listen to etc. you know?
the last note i will leave on is this: today i thought to myself "geez, why does this person try so hard to be cool and have all these friends...??" and then i thought, "denise, why don't you try? why are you content on spending most of your time with your family and your boyfriend?" and then i realized "WOA, I ACTUALLY LIKE DOING THAT!!!" thank you, Jesus.
now seriously, i love my friends (alot!), and they know that. i like that i don't really have to try super hard to have these friends...we all kind of work together and it's great. but i think the reason i love them...is that we don't have to go out and do something every weekend...even when we're together, we don't have to do anything! phew...
i'm not old, i'm not cheap, i'm not lazy...i just don't feel the need to be doing something all the time...that's all
haha i don't think any of the makes sense...however, this exercise was well worth it, because somehow i feel as though i've vented and now i feel better. comical.
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